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I never meant to say those things. Never meant to upset you. It was all because of love. I didn't want to hurt you. I had to hurt you with a hidden blow. I thought you'd be happier later on when I'm gone. If there were any way to show you how sorry I am I'd show you. It seems there are no words for what I feel. I didn't want you to feel the pain of losing me. I didn't want to think of what you'd be doing. Hoping it wasn't what I was doing. I thought of never seeing you again and cried. I couldn't do it. A life without you ended up in flying off a building's edge. This was all for love. If I jump I want it to be for you. But I will not jump without you.

Posted by: Stellalicious Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 09:45pm

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 09:50pm


	i'd rather look back and find fond memories instead of having feelings of bitterness and hate well up at the mere thought of you.

Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 09:52pm


	I thought it would hurt less, Alex. I love you and I can't do this. I'm so sorry it's what I've always done, but I can't go on without you.

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 09:57pm


	what are you talking about? everything will work out. you just have to wait.

Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 09:59pm


	But what if it doesn't? It never has for me. Why should I think it's going to now?

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:03pm


	you have to give this guy a chance. and. it'd hurt me a lot more to know you were gone forever from this earth, than knowing you were out there somewhere. just please stay. you shouldn't base everything on other people. you need to find you, the real you, and realize just how strong you really are.

Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:06pm


	I don't want to give him a chance. I just want to stay. Everything was finally falling into place..

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:09pm


	kisses i know you'll be able to make the best of it, whatever 'it' is. you never know. he could be really cool.

Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:12pm


	Kisses back, holding you close. Alright. I just hope you're right..

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:14pm


	maybe you could even persuade him to let you stay here and visit him on weekends, etc. kisses you deeply i know you're capable of anything.

Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:18pm


	Kisses you back just as deeply, tilting her head to the side. Maybe. Thanks..

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:19pm


	mhm. no worries. licks the inside of your mouth

Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:20pm


	I LOVE YOU.

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:21pm


	LOL. sorry. something ******** up.

Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:22pm


	Meets your tongue with yours. I love you. xD Alright, Darren you made me laugh.

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:24pm


	It's alright. Made me laugh. =D

Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:24pm


	i love you too. amused smirk i had the window open from when i commented so that i could get to it easily, and like an idiot, darren refreshed the page, therefore adding his declaration of love ;D

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Commented on: Mon Dec 29, 2008 @ 10:28pm


	Laughs. Random declarations of love are the best. xD Love you to, Dare Bear. xD

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