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I'm growing sorer by the minute. My heart is aching and my body won't stay and wait. I'm growing more impatient by the minute and i can't take much more of this. I am getting to see my fiancee, so why do i feel like this? My body won't listen to me anymore. It's like a part of me doesn't even WANT to see him but i can't stop thinking about him. I want him but yet i can't have him. it sounds crazy but i have a hard time remembering what he and any of my other friends look like. that's why I NEED to see him. But he doesn't even notice.... sometimes i feel like i'm beside myself with needing him and craving him. when i look in the mirror i don't see me, i see someone who looks like me but is hurting all over and can't even remember what her own fiancee looks like. I can picture him, but i cant put it all together. I need some sort of picture or something to help me. does that make me crazy? yea, i thought so.