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I know that once you and your ex bf are over then you shouldn't love each other or whatever. but me i still love my ex. one of them. so much. but now he's dying. he's got a heart murmur and is slowly dying each day... I'm so upset right now. God is taking all my loved ones away from me... I know it's life but damn! He was close to taking away my Grandma! He's already taken away my Mom! What next?! My Dad?! My lil brother?! My EX BOYFRIEND THAT I LOVE AND CARE ABOUT SO DAMN MUCH?! WHAT THE HELL! IF THIS IS HOW GOD IS GOING TO TREAT ME THEN HELL HE CAN GO ******** HIMSELF! I'LL JUST GO BACK INTO THE DARKNESS NO QUESTIONS ASKED! BACK TO THE DARKNESS AND BEING MY EMO SELF! FOREVER!!!