Ch. 1
dont you find it funny? that we as humans quest for simple things in life only to end up discareded, broken and hated? I will say, the one thing that i myself have quested for all my life is...love. Be now i think im seeing it, Love is nothing its a way to mess with you mind and emoiton. a way to get your hopes you only to be shot dont and rejected agian and agian...ive come to feel this quite a bit lately...and now i can see it, Love is something i think i will never find or ever be a part of. Ive come to call myself the Romanceless Romance Novelest. I dont want to cry anymore because someone is playing mind games and is playing with my mind. I hate it, And how can anyone be so blind? When words like I love you leave someones lips, DONT EVER TAKE THEM LIGHTLY! people never say words like that unless its true...ive only said thouse words to one person outside my family, to him they were just words...a joke to laugh at. Never once in my life did i thnk that whne i would say thouse words they ment nothing, there just words...all my life i was to scared to say thouse words because anytime i would get that feeling for anyone i was shot dont. God has a funny sence of humar huh? my Name i Kaitlyn...for my last name well thats for me to know...im 16 years old and in my life ive only dated once and loved once. tHis entry is so i can vent because i can never seem to be able to vent about this so you tell me is love something that is real and can happen to anyone?or is it something that we humans created to not feel alone at night?
~akira