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im so sick and terid of GUYS judging me ....why cant you see whats inside my heart..someday ill be skinny and ill be really hott and they youll ask me out and ill say
no ******** you, you didnt love me back when i was fat you dont deserve me when im beautiful.......i do want a guy i can cuddle with everynight. a guy that will call me for no reason and then out of no where say i love you so much...a guy that would take the time out of their busy life just to walk to me to give me a hug and kiss and tell me everything gonna be ok........im in tears all the time..ill amit it ...im a depress girl and that what you hate too.you want a girl who ******** YOU.....i may not be strong i may not be beautiful.
but i know some day i will...
and youll look back on this..and say
DAM THAT GIRL REALLY DID LOVE ME...
but too bad....cuz i dont love you.....
you think you can judge me..cuz i smoke sometimes..
im not addicted to it....if i had a bf...I WOULD ******** STOP...unless they wanted me to smoke.....ever since i broke up with that man........MY LIFE SUCK....MY LIFE IS NOTHING BUT BAD.
I GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im terid of love..
LOVE ******** HURTS......
it will get me no where in life.......
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i keep coming back for more..
i wish...i had a man..who love me .................for me...