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I want her back.
I don't care if she thinks I could use better. I don't care if I could use someone who will listen to me the way I want. I want her. I want her only to be mine, I want HER to listen to me. My heart is set on a lot of things. My heart is set on her. I can't just lose some promises because she's not perfect. No one's perfect. Not even me. All I want is her love. That's all I want...
And right now, I feel like a selfish child throwing a temper tantrum. But I want her to be happy. I'll be happy too.
I don't care. I don't care. Her love is what I want. No one gives it the same way she does.
I want my tough love.
That's all I needed.
I've been this ******** spoiled brat who gets everyone's views on my side and well, it's nice to see reality.
I want her to run back to me...
I want her to love me again.
I don't give a damn.
I want to meet her parents and live out with her and write songs together.
I want so bad...
I want so bad to rise up, and she's my angel.
I can't let a few months of love to escape me.
I can't let these emotions go to waste.
I ******** love her.
And I can't lose her over some lover's quarrel.
We learn from what we lose.
And I learned a lot.
I need to grow up, not her.
I fuscking miss her.
I ******** love her.

I'm crying right now lying to myself saying she's right.
She's not right.
I know what's good for me, and it's her.
It's her I want.
Better?
Who the hell could be better than her?
No one.
No one can love me for who I am like she does.
No one can laugh at me over the phone because of who I am...
I ********... Hurt for her.
I ********... Draw for her.
I want so bad for us to draw together.
I want so bad for us to sing together.
And ******** write together.
Even if it means the two of us getting boo'ed off.
I don't give a ********.
I want her mine again.
I want to love her as the ******** hardcore chick who didn't know what she'd do at first, buy a moped, condo and ******** live together in alaska.
For me being an idiot right now?
I don't care. I don't care.
I ******** love her and I hope she gets this.