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I grew up a tad differently from others.

when i was young i never kindled a strong relationship with my mother. When i was younger i hated being stuck alone with her, i hated when my father or my sister wernt home. i learned early that she loathed me because of how i behaved at school. but even when i corrected myself on my own, she still acted the same to me. to this day i hold no emotional bond to my mother, other than one of annoyance and loathing twords the fact that i need her till i am old enough.

On my thriteenth birthday, march 19 2005, i was told that the man i thought was my father since i was an infant, wasnt. the best part was, that it was he whom told me. And I respect him to this day for that. but even if he is still a father to me, he is rarely around since he lives about 150 miles away. He seems to drift farther each year.

My sister and i had a normal relation ship for 10 or so years until my mother left us alone alot. she began to take care of me when she was only 15, we still fought for a time.that was until until we both saw we only had eachother to hold on to. And that held us togeather for a time, until she moved out. now she seems to live just as far as my father even if shes just a mile away. she has her own life now and now i take the full front off the antagonist.

with the lack of what i consider a decent family, i eventually immeresed myself in school and my friends. through them and myself, ive grown exponentially. Each part of who i am is a gem i have recived from the trials ive gone through, but more importantly, through the friendships that have touched my heart. My friend have become my pseudo family, and i share with them everything i wish i had and they share with me a peice of who they are.

This is a part of who i am and i felt i should finally put it out there. this is also a thanks to everybody who has helped me grow.

you are my friends, you are my family.