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The day in the life of Stella.
Just poetry and what not that comes to me at random intervals of time when I'm sittin' in my good ole' computer chair.
I'm getting bad at titles...=(
People are staring.
They're always staring.
Just sitting there, watching me.
It never really did pay to be different.
The nightmares just add to it.
They're all waiting.
Waiting for me to crack.
The pressure is getting to me,
I'll admit that.
The pressure,
the horror,
the lust,
and the memories.
All just small cracks in my icy skin.
I guess I'm like a frozen pond.
Heart and mind of frozen ice..
Each blow is a small crack and someday, it will all shatter.
How horrid that'd be.
Imagining it now,
Screams echoing across the halls,
Blood streaming down the floors,
Bullet shots ringing through the air,
Sobs heard round 'n round.
It'd be an amazing story on the news.
They'd remember me then, my name up in headlines.
Newspapers and Televisions, boasting of my murders and suicide.
I would go out with a bang at the least.
..How I wish I'd fallen when you did, dear Allison.
If only I had been faster and stronger, maybe you'd still be at my side..
But you're not, you're just another crack in the ice..






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The-Bliss-of-Ignorance
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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 01:20pm
Stella..


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 01:45pm
Hey. Gaia is messing up for me at least, so I'm going to message you here right now. >.<



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 05:59pm
What? Sorry, it's my way of venting and getting over all these damn nightmares..it's horrifying. I've been waking up screaming all this week. It sucks major a**.


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 06:04pm
I know. It just doesn't sound..good, you know? Though I guess it isn't supposed to be happy-go-lucky or anything.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 06:06pm
Well I think if it was you dreaming about your friends suicide your writing wouldn't be all happy-go-lucky. I hardly ever scream, you know that. I don't know why but these dreams are so vivid and so horrifying..I've cried because of them. They're that bad Ian...


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 06:08pm
I knew that. Or at least I guessed that they were.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 06:10pm
*shrug*
I feel really sick still. D=
Maybe this s**t is all connected?
The nightmares and me being sick all the time...maybe?


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 06:18pm
The nightmares are probably what causes you to feel so sick. Have you gotten over..her death? At least a little? It might help.
Though, you might be actually sick, which is inducing the nightmares. In that case you should see a doctor, like I said before.

Also, did you already PM me? I haven't gotten anything.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 06:21pm
No, I haven't gotten over her death..
I thought I saw her this morning..
She grabbed my wrist, I even have a bruise where she grabbed me.
Did you read the entry I put in this morning? That's the latest...I swear I wasn't dreaming either. I got up out of bed to close the window that I thought was already closed and Allison just grabbed me. I think I'm going insane...

No, I haven't..I'm not staying long though. I'm in class and just finished a test early..


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 06:24pm
You aren't going insane. I've had something kind of like that happen to me. Not as..bad? Guess that is what you could call it. Could you visit her grave? Might help some things.

Alright, I just had to check. =)



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 08:48pm
I could...but, I don't know.
For once I guess I'm actually..scared.


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:11pm
Wish I could be there to help.. Get someone, anyone, to go with you.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:13pm
*sigh*
There is one person...He'll take me.


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:14pm
Who?



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:19pm
Tyler.
He's the blonde guy on my profile. The one hugging me.


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:22pm
Ah, okay. Good.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:24pm
I'll go late tonight. *nodnod*


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:26pm
Not to late.
Make sure he can even go today, too.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:29pm
He'd do anything for me. I'll text him right now, I'm positive he can. ^-^


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:30pm
Alright.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:31pm
So...?


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:33pm
So?



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:39pm
He said no...T-T
Fine, I'll go by myself! D<


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:42pm
Be careful, then. =(


Have you sent any mail? I keep getting the thing saying I have new mail, but when I check I have nothing new.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:45pm
Sure, whatever..
No. I haven't sent you anything. I almost did but then I gave you a profile comment instead.


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:48pm
D=


Oh, alright then.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:49pm
Sorry, that was really bitchy..


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:50pm
No, it wasn't at all.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:56pm
Tell me the truth..


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 09:58pm
I am. It wasn't, alright.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:01pm
Fine..


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:02pm
Now /that/ could have been. ^-^



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:06pm
D=


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:07pm
Hehe.. 4laugh



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:10pm
o.o
I ******** love you!
D<
=3 teehee


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:11pm
I love you too! =o

But why state that now?



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:16pm
*Shrugs*
'Cuz I felt like it betch. ;D


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:18pm
Kay then.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:20pm
*Hugcling*
<3


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:23pm
*Unclings you so I can cling onto.*
=o



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:25pm
*Immature idea. Giggles.* <3


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:25pm
o.O



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:27pm
*Smiles innocently.*


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:30pm
*Pats your head and unclings from.*
._.



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:32pm
*Pouts and sits on the ground, giving you a cute wide-eyed pouty face.*


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:34pm
D=
*Walks beside, spins a little to face the same direction as you, and sits.*



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:35pm


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:39pm
*Huggles.*



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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:41pm
^-^
*Smiles and closes her eyes.*
Nn...I'm getting sweepy.


commentCommented on: Thu Nov 20, 2008 @ 10:43pm
Maybe you need a nap?



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