So today I am going to write.
Because in writing, I can find the comfort I've been longing.
I can fill the emptyness, I can stop the suffering.
Because these words do not want to come out from my mouth.
My heart it screams and cries every single day.
Since the day you stopped talking to me.
I've been having up's and down's
I've stopped loving life.
I don't even see college as the happy place it used to be for me.
Why is this?
Is because of you.
The day I met you I felt like the happiest person in the world. And that feeling remained in me, and rejoiced everytime you passed by my life. I never asked for anything in return. Just, your presence, to know you were alive.
The weeks passed by, then months.
And one day we started talking.
You, with your words. Those words, sharp as daggers. But as sweet as chocolate.
You started with those words. And soon I was starting to fall.
You're too cuddly. You're too sweet. You're too much of a perfect dream.
Then that night, had me full of choices. I had to leave, but I was surely thinking of you all the time. Then I returned, and there you were. We acted like the best of friends, knowing we barely knew each other.
We spent the whole night together. You claimed you cared for me.
You made me the happiest person alive. I would never forget that night.
Then I had to leave, even though you begged me to stay.
But you called, and stated how much you... "loved me and missed me".
Until one day, you never called back.
And that's when the nightmares started.
I can only say few things.
I love you.
And I hate you.
But I love you more.
The sad truth to say is, you don't.
And now I must forget you.
Because in writing, I can find the comfort I've been longing.
I can fill the emptyness, I can stop the suffering.
Because these words do not want to come out from my mouth.
My heart it screams and cries every single day.
Since the day you stopped talking to me.
I've been having up's and down's
I've stopped loving life.
I don't even see college as the happy place it used to be for me.
Why is this?
Is because of you.
The day I met you I felt like the happiest person in the world. And that feeling remained in me, and rejoiced everytime you passed by my life. I never asked for anything in return. Just, your presence, to know you were alive.
The weeks passed by, then months.
And one day we started talking.
You, with your words. Those words, sharp as daggers. But as sweet as chocolate.
You started with those words. And soon I was starting to fall.
You're too cuddly. You're too sweet. You're too much of a perfect dream.
Then that night, had me full of choices. I had to leave, but I was surely thinking of you all the time. Then I returned, and there you were. We acted like the best of friends, knowing we barely knew each other.
We spent the whole night together. You claimed you cared for me.
You made me the happiest person alive. I would never forget that night.
Then I had to leave, even though you begged me to stay.
But you called, and stated how much you... "loved me and missed me".
Until one day, you never called back.
And that's when the nightmares started.
I can only say few things.
I love you.
And I hate you.
But I love you more.
The sad truth to say is, you don't.
And now I must forget you.
