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So, I was making a video, Elfen Lied to the song Never Wanted To Dance, and I had a little bit of trouble with the sound. The song would cut out and it wouldn't save. I tinkered for a few hours, gave up and made another video, made a preview of another, very old one, and then went back to my original work.

After a few more hours of cutting, editing and playing around, and watching the episodes : D, I found out what the cause was. And I fixed it, made a preview of it, and uploaded said preview.

Sadly, a certain woman decided that I had no right to make this video, and she posted such on my video. She down voted me as well, as she has on almost all of my videos. This vastly disappointed and distressed me. I complained to my beloved friends LuLu and Alle. They're amazing. Mandi is my Knight in Shining Pixels <3

I blocked her, but she found my <i>hidden</i> account, so she was stalking me, anyone who knows the story agrees. I contacted the moderators, but they said that they couldn't do anything about it, said I should simply ignore her. So, I will.

On to other things, I'm still reading Brisingr. I've just been to sick, tired and busy. I love the book though. I've had a few days off because I inured myself. -I tripped and twisted my ankle really bad on Saturday, I'm smart you know.- So, I've been trying to stay off of it, so as to not hurt it further, but I have to work with my dad tomorrow. Looking forward to it. I actually am, scary.

Paolin inspires me to take up my pen once more and to write my heart out.

His words are so electrifying, so beautiful, I love every second I spend reading. I have about four or five more books to read after this one though. :[ I've been slacking in the book department, and I need to buy more still. My collection is so tiny i ~ i

I'll take pictures of it and make a collage of it all to show you how tiny I think it is <3

Other than that, I've been sick, and lonely. My best friend lives out of town, my boyfriend is in Florida and my net friends are, well not here. So, I've stopped speaking out loud when not at work. Its really nice to not have to vocalize anything, to rely only on posture, and physical movements. I feel now, that movement is the ultimate expression. I love to watch people move and interact.

But I think that this is making me more recluse then I already am, and that if it holds, I'll reject my friends, and boyfriend, for a life of solitude. This frighten me greatly, I don't really want to be alone, but I do like the silence. To think, listen and just be, its a lot of fun.

I pose this now.

Is loneliness all that bad? Is it so horrible to wish to be left alone? Even if it means people are hurt by the completion of this desire?

I think that I feel this because of what that woman has done to me, and that she stalked me. I'm disgusted with humans for the most part, but so many people I love, and enjoy being with. Its all so confusing I feel.

I have a favor to ask of you, please go look at this woman's page, and if you feel like she is good, please commission her. She is in money woes currently, and help would be loved. I don't personally know her, but her art is lovely. Thank you

Commission page < miraibaby >


Thank you in advance if you do this for her, please, if you would take the time, spread the word of her. Thank you.

Well, y'all, that is all I have to say now. Till another day, another entry.





 
 
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