Seriously. The standards for how much you should weigh get smaller and smaller every ******** year. Apparently, the only costumes I can wear are plus sizes. Trying on clothes has always depressed me, but this is the first year shopping for a Halloween costume has. And I never want to go shopping with Mima for clothes again, because she had no problem pointing out the "large" at Party City for the costume I had my heart set on "showed every roll" Yeah. Her and the woman that worked there had a nice ******** laugh about that. Does she even ******** understand how god damn embarrassing that was for me? Obviously not, or else she would have had the decency to not say that s**t outloud. The costume I wanted was sold out in plus sizes, and didn''t have the accesories in large, so I wouldn't yhave got the large even if it had fit, but still. I was upset. Then we went to this other store, Spirit, and of course nothing fit and all the plus sizes they had were hideous. Seriously, I hate how people think that if you don't look like a god damn toothpick you don't give a ******** about your appearance. I happen to like myself a bit, but what little self-esteem I have is usually shot down in a dressing room of some sort. So, we go to Wal-Mart, and the largest size they have is a 12-14, which fits, but not in a way I'm happy with. So, I get to dresss my daughter up as Tinkerbell and go trick-or-treating in Tinkerbell pajamas. Woo hoo. Go me. I ******** hate it. If my father had bought me the costume I wanted last week, like we planned, I would probably be wearing the costume I wanted. But no, because I won't let my daughter live with them 3 days a week, him and my grandmother hate me, which I really don't give a ******** about. Let them hate me. I'm not going to be pressured or guilt-tripped into letting them have my child any more. If they want, they can see her for a few hours on Sundays. If they can't live with that, they can kiss my a**. I'm not going to raise my daughter without her father and her father lives here. I need to stop typing. I already feel like s**t and thinking about today seriously makes me wanna cry. I might add more later.
Sudoku Kitten · Thu Oct 30, 2008 @ 01:33am · 1 Comments |