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My feelings have been mixed up forever and I don't know what to do with them. I'm sometimes happy and then I start tog et sad the more happy I get the sadder I become....I drown myself with music to make it seem I'm okay but really I'm not sometimes I think of sucide it sounds so great. But then I remember all the people I love and then start to think....do they really love me? I sometimes don't think so. But they say they do but it's hard to convince me of such things. Someone better stop me before I do something that could destroy me forever. I really don't want to do it though but it could happen pretty soon.