Why can't I just ditch? The world is so complicated nowadays. It's all about citizenship, economy, education, and politics. Why is our orientation such a problem? Can't the world just understand and leave who we are to ourselves? Love is love, no matter who between. NO ONE should be able to touch that, even if they still supposedly have custody. I want to express what I feel in my freedoms, not just my art and my music. This world is broken, and I'm not strong enough to fix it. I'm so sorry. I want to do everything I can... but it's so hard. College is expensive, and so is living on your own. Why do they hate me so damn much? I haven't done anything wrong. I've tried to keep them off my back with good grades, and that didn't work. Anything they encouraged me to do, I did. Not willingly, not happily, but I did whatever they said I should be doing. So I graduated high school, had therapy forced upon me for two years, and got into a good University. What the hell else can they expect of me? I can't do this anymore! They supported me so much when I dated a guy. My mom's so selfish! She's just worried that I've now nixed her chances for grandkids... I mean, even if I do end up marrying a girl... what's the difference? I have a natural "father-figure" in my personality. I want to have kids, even if I have to adopt, it's an important element of my future. And hell, she has another kid, her perfect son is capable of making babies just like any other man. So if she wants grandkids so badly, she'll be patient, or she'll denounce any relation to me and then want to kick herself when she realizes that it is still possible to have a great family with same-sex parents. -pant pant- well, that is my 3 AM rant for today.
Ky_the_22nd · Sat Oct 04, 2008 @ 10:22am · 1 Comments |