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if i continue to smile can u feel it?
if i am utterly fake in the rain
if i fool them all could i fool you?
smiling in the midst of my pain
if i was hurled to the ground
yet i smiled though bleeding
would you see the tears thru the rain?
i'll smile though weeping
thrown about and tortured
smileing fakely thru the torment
i tend to fool the rest
no one there... no hearing what the words meant
if i smiled would you be scared?
if i didnt would you pretend that you cared?
the things i've done the things i've seen
makes the things i do or say things i mean

lying on the ground
listless in the muddy rain
sobbing whilst i smile
sheilding you from my pain
pouring down on my face
the rain washes my tears
the sleepless nights and straightfaced days
the feelings inside filled by fears
fear of love, fear of breaking
fear of lonely, fear of life
fear of help, fear of non existance
fear of your hurt your torment and strife
hiding my pain from you for your protection
hiding my tears and facing all the rejection
no help from my peers so i turn to the rain
no hiding my fears as i run thru the pain

this year must be better,
the rain started it out
continue to cry still trying to hope
lost my certainty to doubt.
this feeling inside i try to shield
fragile and cracked so close to shattering
the rain fills the cracks
as i stand in misery nods to the chattering
people surrounding me
still i stand alone
sobbing in the rain
im left out on my own
hide thease tears,
rain washing away the fears
standing alone and broken and wet
i smile sadly knowing the insides you dont get

alone in misery hurt and smiling
my phone wont even pick up even if your dialing
alone in this world faking my life
alone and hiding all my misery pain and strife
in the rain you cant see the water spilling from my eyes
in the rain you can only see the smiles filled with lies
this pain you cant help with, so please walk away
my life will go on with each passing day
i love you enough to let you pass along without me
i love you so i hide the pain to places you cant see
smiling in the rain
hiding my pain
i love you
i really do
please dont worry about me
im fine as can be