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It hurts to look at his picture because every time I do, I'm reminded of what I can't have.

It hurts when that other girl acts like they're still dating despite the fact that he told her he's gay.

It hurts when he won't answer the phone even when I have something important to say.

It hurts when we talk on the phone for the first time in ages and all too soon he has to go.

It hurts to remember our special afternoon because the past week he's been acting like it meant absolutely nothing to him. Sometimes I wonder if he thinks back on every kiss, every touch, every whispered word of love, and regrets that he did it.

It hurts to remember him leaving the last time I saw him because I let him walk away from me.

And then.....in the middle of the pain......

I remember the look in his eyes right before he kissed me the first time, and I fall in love with him again. How could anyone ever look at anyone else like that and not love them?

And then it hurts again.

It's worse than being cut open with knives.

God, I miss him so much. I love him more than I ever loved anybody, anywhere. I would die fo him if I had to.

~Kaggie-chan