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I AM SO JEALOUS OF YOU!
>.<
I AM SO JEALOUS OF YOU, AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!!!
Well, I think you suspect, but you don't want to ask.
For three years. THREE YEARS. And not once. No. All of the first year, and off and on the second and third. Then now, and with you, and it all comes rushing back! >.<
And all I ever hear about is YOU! Just YOU! And you know it! What is the matter with you? Why are you doing this? Arrgh. I AM SO JEALOUS, AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!
Practically perfect in every way
Noticed by everyone everyday
And so all I do is hide away
Little to do, little to say.
>.<
Why don't you...how can you? Gra! Knowing that.
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I know you can fill in these blanks. THREE YEARS. ANd I haven't said a thing. THREE YEARS and I've let it slide, because all I've ever heard about is you or some other. Silently thinking and wishing, knowing that it can't ever come true. Wanting just one person ONE PERSON... and it won't ever happen.
Fine when we are alone. But when you come it's as if I dissapear.
Two's company, three's a crowd, and to keep peace I choose to walk away.
But even if asked, I couldn't say yes, because it wouldn't be me, it would be you. The only thing worse then never having anything is having it and not having it for you. Everytime it looks like me it isn't me they see, but you.
And you don't even know.
I wish I could get mad at you. I wish I could yell and scream and rant and rave WHY DON'T YOU DO SOMETHING? CAN'T YOU SEE? But you don't. And it isn't your fault, and it isn't mine, so I can't. No one deserves it. So I stay and keep it all inside, never showing, always knowing.
And you don't even know.
And now, now when you know, now that youdo know, it'll be awkward. And everyone else who knows will be sad and laughing inside, feeling pity but thinking 'pathetic.' And I know it. You don't want to think it, but you know it. And you know it will be strained until it seems like we all forget, but we won't. And then we'll remember and it will be all awkward. No one will want to say anything. Well, yeah, they will, but they'll be scared. Scared to break this peace we have. Scared that by saying it they'll have to deal with it.
I'm so jealous of you, and you don't even know.
So all I can say is...goodbye.