Well lets see...The thoughts for this journal entry came to me earlier today on the bus. When yet another person asked me if I'm emo.
I told her no, but then I thought to myself you know I very well could be if I wanted to.
(But I don't want to be)I have only two true friends here in Texas. Shay and Jacob. But I think the only reason they actually talk to me is because I'm a misfit like them. Shay calls her self emo(even though shes really not) and Jacob is crippled.
I had a few other friends down here. Jordan, Ryan Trevor, Daniel, Ariana, and Troy.
But lately(actually all summer) They haven't responded to Text messages, Myspace messages, comments, or phone calls I've sent them. I would talk to them at school but none of them are in my classes, and with the new rules for the cafeteria I can't talk to them during lunch either. Jordan and Trevor use to be on my bus, but now they have a different bus that drops them off. And I can't talk to them in the halls because Are classes are scattered all over the school, and we only have 4 minutes to get to them. So I still never get the chance to talk to them. So when schools over I walk home after the bus drops me off. Then I talk with shay for a few minutes until we get to her house. Then I walk the rest of the way home alone. I get home and do nothing, but do my homework and get on the computer. But the computer has begun to boor me once again. I've thought off killing myself but the only thing thats keeping me alive is that fact that I still hope things will get better, and that if I was dead their would be even less stuff to do. Oh and something else that I'm not going to tell you. So these are my thoughts if you want to comment or not I don't really care.
I told her no, but then I thought to myself you know I very well could be if I wanted to.
(But I don't want to be)I have only two true friends here in Texas. Shay and Jacob. But I think the only reason they actually talk to me is because I'm a misfit like them. Shay calls her self emo(even though shes really not) and Jacob is crippled.
I had a few other friends down here. Jordan, Ryan Trevor, Daniel, Ariana, and Troy.
But lately(actually all summer) They haven't responded to Text messages, Myspace messages, comments, or phone calls I've sent them. I would talk to them at school but none of them are in my classes, and with the new rules for the cafeteria I can't talk to them during lunch either. Jordan and Trevor use to be on my bus, but now they have a different bus that drops them off. And I can't talk to them in the halls because Are classes are scattered all over the school, and we only have 4 minutes to get to them. So I still never get the chance to talk to them. So when schools over I walk home after the bus drops me off. Then I talk with shay for a few minutes until we get to her house. Then I walk the rest of the way home alone. I get home and do nothing, but do my homework and get on the computer. But the computer has begun to boor me once again. I've thought off killing myself but the only thing thats keeping me alive is that fact that I still hope things will get better, and that if I was dead their would be even less stuff to do. Oh and something else that I'm not going to tell you. So these are my thoughts if you want to comment or not I don't really care.
