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I Remember...

The first time we met...you just talked and I just listened,
You asked why I wasn't talkative, you said that you talked too much.
I told you it was fun, listening to you talk about these random things.
Of how things were, your brother and mother and such.
I really love your voice, nice and sweet, not one "bad word".
Cause you are innocent, even I know that much.

After two or more days of listening.
We parted, and I thought of you from time to time.
And i missed that voice of yours.
I hoped that wasn't a crime.
So I sought you out and found you,
But at the wrong time.

Another guy had beaten me.
And though that made me sore,
I said to myself it was ok.
I could do nothing more.
This guy seemed to make you happy,
To stop that smile would eat away at my core.

And so i waited, for years it seemed.
Even though it was not long,
Before you and him ended it yourselves,
And even though it was wrong.
I was happy and my heart did cheer,
Sometimes I even broke out into song!

I was not happy that your happiness ended,
I was happy that my chance had come.
To put a smile upon your face,
Though I didn't make it known from.
One ocean to another.
I instead waited for THE time to come.

After a while I tried to move,
I asked your number and instead gave you mine.
Only one convorsation we had and
Those few minutes were worth gold NO LYIN'!
We also exchanged some emails,
In which I told you you were fine.

Then later came a dance,
Where i hoped that you would be.
But when I showed.
You I did not see!
I tried to have a good time.
But I knew it would not be.

Well I emailed and told you i missed you,
And said you owed me one.
Just one dance was all I said.
I was only playing and having fun.
I told you I was kidding...
Though the thought made my heart run.

Then ther came another dance,
And to my surprise you were there!
I remeber spending the night watching you.
Saw how you smiled as if to dare.
Anything to try to rival your radiance.
To me all the gorgeous things against you ranked only fair.

You all of a sudden reminded me.
Of the one you owed.
Then you led me to the floor.
I'm simply stunned by the spell you bestowed.
Then you had me hold you close.
As the music slowly flowed.

I learned every word to that song,
And bought it pretty quick.
With just one dance or touch.
You had made me very sick.
So love sick in fact I was in the clouds.
So I decided that I should move quick.

At Christmas, though not on time,
Some roses I sent to you.
I told you it wasn't much.
They were fake and very few.
Only a dozen.
Just for you.

I wish I could have given them to you,
But I couldn't find the time.
I wish I could have seen your face,
Maybe try to sing some christmas rhyme.
But I couldn't and i regret,
That for you i couldn't find the time.

Then when Valentines day rolled around,
I had planned to be romantic.
I had thought of flowers, candies, maybe dinner.
All I wanted was your heart...no trick
Why didn't I want to give you mine?
It had already been yours pretty quick.

Then soon i found out that you were with someone.
And had been for a little while.
That made me angry at first.
And I wanted to act like a child.
But then I realized something.
You are higher on the pile.

I hope this guy is good enough.
Unlike me i guess.
As long as he keeps you smiling.
It matters to me less.
The pain in my heart is heavy now,
But then again I guess this is best.