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my dad has partly change...but he still never home....when i was over at chelsea we listen to my little girl...and she told me it use to be her and her dads song..now its her and jays....i dont know why... but i became jealous a bit....and sad.... here why..

i wish i was daddy little girl or daddy little princess....he never home for that ...i want to make him proud to call me his angel. better yet his littel angel... i do feel lost right now...i cant sleep..really.. my brothers treat me nothing but crap...my mom just compleately change on me.... i try to make my brother nick proud..but nothing ever good enought for him....nothing.....he says the only reason why im still alive is so he can pick on me...=( i try to be nice..but its not use..he will alwayst treat me like this...they dont understand...that..im more than what they see...that i have another family...why cant they understand...that i want to be loved...the only way i get to be loved is if im over at chelsea....and if my own family loves me..they sure have a funny way of showing it...=( ....i dont know why...i know a lot has happen between me and my father..but sometimes i wish i could be in his arms..and he would call me his little girl..and say im so proud of u....but i never got that from him......my grandpa pretty much the only one who gives me hugs now..and chelsea....and sometimes chelsea mom.....but really now..
i dont get any more hugs...no one say i love u to me.....chelsea never knew..she ask me what was going on at my house..u want to know chelsea..i finnally found out.... i dont get anymore hugs...this time NO one say i love u....i..just feel really rejected right now...i miss what i use to have....=(( ......i miss everything... i miss our family time....even thou we never played any games...i miss my mom hugging me and saying that she loved me.........right now...its 11:23 pm....and for real this time...im crying.......i feel worthless......sure ill get a please and a good job from them...but where the im sooo proud of u honey...i love u a lot.....what happen to the sentance..I LOVE U MORE... WHAT HAPPEN TO IT...HUH...everything..EVERTHING GONE..........................i just relize it...no one say i love u anymore......i wish they would....i lay down every night...and think about it.....i think WHAT DID I DO WRONG.....