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Someone I get the idea. You ******** hate me. I was a worthless excuse of a man who just ******** loves drama. I'll just go lick my wounds and fall for some other poor sap, because I totally just love going through this over and over again! I hope you find someone who can truly be everything you want and need. I'm certain that you will. I'm sorry I failed. Goodbye
Because you did not let me respond and blocked me.(Yes I can take my hits)
Just for the record and because it needs to be corrected, I never said anything about hating you. You assumed that all on your own. You also claim that you trusted me, we both know that was a damn lie. If you knew anything about me you would have known I don't get my jollies off by hurting people.
God forbid I actually knew anything about you but I guess for you the timetable is someone has to be with you for two years before you let them know your favorite color. But since I won't "Pry" anymore or "Force" you to tell me things I won't ask what your favorite color even was.
ANYTHING would have been better than NOT telling me how you were doing. What in the hell kind of s**t storm hit you that totally rendered you incapable of human feelings and consideration of others? I didn't even know if you were alive! but to you I guess I am just this doll on a shelf you play with sometimes when you remember about me.
You talk about "shitstorms" yet I dealt with moving and only had one week to do it and still managed to be one day over the deadline, Had to go to court (would have been nice to have had your support for that but I see I wasn't high on your list of priorities) being roped into being a camp counselor, college courses, family obligations, my fathers cancer, and despite all this I STILL managed to contact people who were moving, had broken computers, were helping other friends who were moving, one who was evicted.
I told you I was moving beforehand, the first person I contacted when I found a tiny corner of the attic that had internet was you. We don't even have cable or internet set up yet. Never once have I ever told you to just "Assume I am ok" thats pretty much telling me not to care and when I don't care you throw a temper tantrum, block me, say disparaging things about me in your journal and don't even allow me the chance to respond.
You say you disagree, that you don't want to "defend" yourself against me. You can admit to our mutual friend that you admit you shut me out but you could never say anything like that to me. If I was made aware that you were not comfortable with me I might have been able to fix it but since when the hell have you ever told me important stuff like that?
Three months, and you never phoned me, once. as long as it was on my phone bill, spending my money it was ok though, right?
You never even told me you thought things were going to fast so I do apologize if you thought it was. What happened to all those walls you supposedly took down for me cause from my end you could NOT have been more closed off. Your a ******** safe and I have no time to guess the code, I can't be arsed sorry.
I won't bother to discuss my feelings because I know you hate that crap and you can finally get some peace and quiet now with me gone. I'll just keep everything a big secret from now on like you do. Again, I accept you weren't as into me as I thought, that was a misunderstanding on my part.
I also find it interesting how you claim to still want to be friends yet blocked me. Once again, you say the words, but I see your actions say something completely different.
Your a coward who's so afraid of getting hurt or getting close to anyone you just push everyone away. You never loved me, you can't , because your too afraid of it.
Enjoy your drama free life, K?
 Jayce Reinhardt · Mon Aug 04, 2008 @ 03:03am · 4 Comments |
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