my heart aches and i pain
UGH!! i swear my heart can never make its mind up!! i love her so much!! i want her so badly but i know i cant have her......at least not now mayb idk......she was just so special to me.....*sighs* and now theres another girl that i like and my current gf is just out there and im just so lost and confused my heart aches and i just cant stand it im ready to cry!! she was just so special to me.....she was different.....she was all i needed....i would have given the world up for her.....*sighs* but idk if i can do that now....i messed up badly before and idk what now i can do to make up for it.....she said shes forgiven me but i feel so bad.....that night still rings in my head like a bad scar.....it never goes away...just hearing her.....say those words.....it kills me.....and the dreams ive been having lately dont help but i trust in god that he will lead me in the way i need to go i just hope that its with her......shes all i want......and all ill ever need.....
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