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I just can't help but feel a little strange these days.It's just so odd.The rest of your life is RIGHT THERE! I just have to take charge and take it right? But I was always told it's what you make it and that you need to make it happen,but you need Money and A job and everyone leaves you and that High school s**t is everywhere all the time right? And everything kinda looses it's sparkle because it's no longer new but no longer old.Even new things are no longer fun because you have to find the flaw in them because you know from experiance that everything has a catch.

I dunno,I just don't know.

I don't wanna be me right now.
I don't like me.I see my self in such a strange light and when that light goes dim and I see what I really am It Hurts you know? Nobody Likes to Hear let alone See what they are.I dunno,I just feel like I lie to Myself too much about what Life has coming for me....
Is Anyone feelin' me?
Now that we're here right before the Burst of Adulthood and the rest of our lives with screamin' kids a job and an abusive spouse is anyone else.....Kinda left in the dust of the dreams we thought we could always chase as kids?

It's kinda like chasin' Fireflies from here on out,You get a glimpse then it glows for a moment and disappears.I think I'll always be chasin' Fireflies and without a net to boot.