Loneliness...
something i had come to accept in my years of going back and forth to school.
It wasn't that i tried or unapproachable...but because i associated with practically anyone.
I felt as though, I would be disappointed in the end...and that they would slow me down...
I had learned not to be...or need friends to live...
still..I tried nonetheless...
I didn't need friends...but i started to want them later on...
Last year...I made a special friend to me...We've been talking every since we met on gaia, and spend most of the hours of the day talking to one another, role-playing, joking, or anything we wanted to do..over the internet. During the weekend of July 18-20, 2008. We finally met one another face to face. We've never had an argument in any kind of way, and help one another out when possible...
I felt as though she was one of those friends...the best kind..the type that understands because they know what you mean and whatnot...
She's also kept me company, helping me forget any type of loneliness that existed...
but just yesterday...she suddenly disappeared..without warning..it worries me...I wonder what happened..and more importantly..is she okay? It's never happened before...without notice. I hope she's alright..and that tommorrow...I come to find everything's returned back to normal.
I hope nothing's wrong...or else..I feel as though...I'll start to break again...
Her being there...has helped me get through my homesickness..and worries...since i moved away...
I hope...she's okay.
 Ranger Myst · Mon Jul 28, 2008 @ 04:02am · 0 Comments |
