I always thought of myself as an ugly not worth a damn child. From my point of view it just had to be the case with the responces I always received from people. Always staring were the guys while girls gave me more of a glare. Not that they are to blame though. My looks, voice...everything about me is of a crappy quality. Can't be helped.
Now I tend to find myself crying outside while I watch the stars. Don't see why people say I'm pretty and some other nice things yet I am so miserable. I can't even fake a smile all too well anymore. I look dead....very dead. Must have been all the kind lies told to me and doubts within me. Such things really go at you.
Blah...I might as well give up on the whole getting a boyfriend idea. Seriously...looks nor smarts or anything else makes much a difference in my case. I always get attracted to the guys that want nothing to do with me -______-;; Oh well. No life is perfect I guess ^ ^. Must keep it realistic. Lucky foor me, I happen to not me attractive in any way x.x;
On a more cheeful note, I saw the "I just want you to know" video from the Backstreet boys....*chuckles* I loved it. It made me laugh quite a bit. For about 4 minutes I completely slipped out of my depression. The video was just soo cheesy....I ...I don't know. ^-^ I am in love with the video. So horrible that it is good.
Tres bien *nods...then looks back at French notes*....>.O...T-T I don't sound French at all!!!! *sigh* But I must learn. Someone...anyone...one person will have to recognize me... I will have THREE languages down and Japanese will follow soon after... v_v....Danm. I'm pathetic.... ..^w^;; Can't be helped though I guess. I wouldn't be stupid a** Evelyn if I weren't. 3nodding
~EvEe PaLaCiOs
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Aiko Tori Evee Himeno Sagara AKA Hatred Kitten
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