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Have you ever had someone that you really want to watch out for? Like...it's important to you that they are kept safe?

I have a friend like that- her name is Victoria and she'll probably kill me if she reads through this journal, but it's true. XP

Earlier today there was a kid in our class- he is a good guy at heart, bu the can be very irritating. he keeps putting his hand on her shoulder and his head, and she tells him not to because she finds it aggravating. We were walking ou of the class nd he said he was gonna do something to her, that she was his gilrfriend or something. I don't know if he, my friend, o rthe teacher heard me (The teacher said he was lucky she even said hi, and Victoria was saying that she wasn't his girlfriend) but I said "No you won't. If you lay a hand on her I swear I'll break it." And I will. He put his hand on my shoulder after I told him I don't like him doing that and I grabbed his fingers and twisted/pulled back on them so he was screaming. I refused to let him go for a minute or two and when I did he left.

But seriously- she seems so tiny and little and small and innocent...you've just got to keep her safe! And she can be academically smart- I know it's in her- but she isn't all that smart common sense wise.

I swear she is gonna be that on ein four. If you don't know what that statistic means, you can send me a note and I'll tell you. But if you're thinking "Eh...I don't think mine is right. ^^' " YOu're probably right.
She's gonna go to college, and her first party she's going to get drugged. Someone will slip something in her drink and make sure she drinks it, and the next morning she'll wake up horrified and alone in someone elses bed without her clothes on. XP And I know it is going to happen.

When I get a car I want to sign her up for a martial arts class- I myself want to get in one. I'll get a job and pay for it if I have to, but I want her to have some mode of self defense in her. She isn't bright enough in that way to come up with a way to fight on her own. And I know the first thing she'll do is run- which is good- but when she's cornered, even though she probably won't even realize what she's doing, I think her body will remember some of what she learned...At least enough to get her out of a jam and back to running and screamin guntil she eventually reaches safety.

I want to make sure she comes to whatever college I go to. I want her to be my room mate so that I know where she is and can make sure she doesn't get hurt some way. XP I know it sounds ridiculous. I want her to take martial arts classes in college too, like I do, but while I am doing them not only for skills but for enjoyment, I want her to (Even if she HATES it) Go there and learn how to keep herself safe. I know I can't make her do anyt of this. I know that it sounds crazy. And I know that for some reason I'm being too over protective. But I just can't help it. >.< She is the one person that I am really worried about leaving behind.

I was laughing with my friend- saying that when she gets her first real boyfriend this year I'll probably be harder on the guy then her parents are. When he tries to do that smooth reach behind her and put his hand on her shoulder thing, I'll be there pushing his arm away and shaking my head in silent warning as she watches a movie. And I know I'll do it too. XP

Perhaps that in a past life- if I had a past life- she was my little sister or little girl or something, and I somehow didn't manage to keep her safe and something horrible happened to her. Perhaps that I'm trying to make up for it in this life. I don't know- but I do think of her like my little sister or even as my own little girl at times. I haven't known her very long- not more then a year- but I was telling her to eat lunch over the summer and everything. XP

*Sighs* I know I'm ridiculous, and I don't know why I feel like this (As I've said) But I do. ^^' (I am most definitely straight, so that rules out THAT option. XP) And I don't know what I'm gonna do if, come May when I graduate, she is left without an idea of what to do when something goes wrong.

I honestly just don't know.