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isn't ths depressing as hell? ^ ^



LOVE IS MY LIFE


you have my spirit,


it's part of your soul.


i'm letting you


have all the control.





you need to leave me free


so i can fly away,


but keep a roof over me


so i will not stray.





your words of hate


boring into my soul.


the words, "i love you"


and you've got control.





i want to hate you


and say i don't care,


but the love that i still feel


keeps me from going anywhere.





my whole soul is yours,


to love, to destroy.


but sometimes, i think it too much,


and that when i overjoy


you feel enwhelmed by me


and start to sink.


so you scramble away.


but my soul is still that of an innocent child,


and it does not understand that type of pain.


and until my soul, in it's children's clothes


decides to move on,


it cannot let you go.


it's so spoiled and selfish.


it makes me hate myself.


and with this hatred,


i will turn black.


black like death.





this child is so alone.


the only way for it to survive


is to let itself be taken in completly


and to shun it


is to kill me.


i feel blood along with these tears


and hatred along with this sorrow,


and i doubt,


and i hate,


and the only thing that i want to come back to....


is you."