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After talking with my friend and her mother i was getting ready to have a nice talk with her when she turned and glared at me. "Your such a FAKER!!!Gosh my are you MY sister" She yelled at me, turning back to her book she was reading she didn't see how hurt I was. I am a word person I don't need to be physically shown I am loved I need words to show someone's love. When she said that she did the most harm she could probably do to me. I have thought I am a faker but only in school. I am really social and talk a lot. I never really say whats going on in my house or how I really feel. I feel like I can't. Most of my friends are worryworts. They would worry that I don't sleep enough or worry about me and my dad (thats for another day). I get depressed when I think it and I always hope that they could see that I was depressed and cheer me up. But they never notice. Or someone will but they aren't really a friend just a classmate. I guess I am a faker but it hurts. It hurts that she doesn't like me.

The only thing worst then insulting me is just not talking to me at all especially when you don't tell me what it is about. I freak out when someone doesn't talk who usually does. I don't know what to do. I yell then I get violent. Fortunately I don't have to very often. I feel like throwing up and this computer doesn't help at all. By the way, I won't be on this weekend maybe. My best friend is coming out for the weekend so I might not be on or not as much. She does have a gaia so....

My mood: sick