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Ever since I was just four or five my mother had kept a secret from me and my father. I dont know why she did't tell me, after all i am her son but anyways. She kept it from me until I was eleven, and didn't tell my dad till later on. The secret was that she was magic and didn't want my father to know cause he despised all things magical. When she told me she said that I too was magic and that we must not tell father for he would get rid of us. So I kept it a secret, and while I did my mother was teaching me magic with the spell books that was passed down from her mother. When I was fourteen she finally told my father but he didnt take it to well. He threw us out and made us fend for ourselves on the streets. We survived none the less with the three jobs that I worked and with what my mom sold on the streets. She continued to teach me magic until sadly she died of sadness and misery. I was all alone working almost all day and barley sleeping just to make a living. I rented a small apartment at the age of sixteen and studied magic as it was the only thing i had that made me truly happy. As things went on I started having these black outs and I wouldnt know what would happen and people would be either scared of me or angry with me for no reason. Until one day i heard a voice in my head that said, " Joe my name is Jesse, i'm the reason you've been having these black outs." He let out a dark cold laugh. "I'm your dark side Joe and you can't stop me. No magic is powerful enough to stop me." And I asked him, "But how did you become my dark side, I mean you werent there before?" He just chuckled. "I was created out of the hatred for your father." "I would never hate my father even if he did this to me and my mother!" I shouted angrily. "You know you hated your father and I know it to so dont lie." I had to agree with him I hated my father with passion and wanted to hurt him so bad for killing my mother. So that's how Jesse was created and every time I black out he takes over and i'm in a part of my mind that I see everything that happens. But as I grew older I created a restaurant called The Blue Phoenix Club and Restaurant and from then on Jesse never came back until when no one was at the club, he called to me," Joe you can not get rid of me remember that and I won't stop until I control your whole body." He let out a cold and evil laugh and said no more. Then something happened I met this girl named Mystic and I liked her alot, she was nice, kind, and caring. I wanted somone to love and care for and I knew it was her that I was seeking. I met her at a bar that she was working at and from then on i knew she was the one. I controlled Jesse from then on till now. He's been back and i'm worried hes going to do something to Mystic and I only hope that he doesnt. But I think that if I love her then he has to have some feeling for her too you know. Well now im scared that i'm going to black out soon but i hope not. Theres a way you can tell us apart, he wears a black buttoned up shirt like mine and shades. And now I proposed to her not remembering but doing so out of love. I haven't mentioned this to her but I will soon. I hope I do before Jesse does.