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Disappointment?

I don't know why, but I have been disappointing people lately,
Like my friends, my family, and those who expect things from me.
I'm not very smart, I'm not really good with people,
and all the things I'm good at, I find out I'm not very good at it, at all.
I don't know why, almost everyone I meet always expect something from,
and I'm afraid most of the time I can not fulfill there expectations.
I can't stand it when some one lets down others and
yet I seem to be doing that a lot, and I can't stand it.

Why does almost everyone expect something from me?
Are they not satisfied with the way I am?
can anyone truly like me without expecting something from me?
If not, then i will just end up disappointing others,
because I am me, and I can not change, I will not change,
just for some one else approval.
As one of my favorite lines
"I would rather have people hate me for who I am,
then have people love me for who I'm not"

But I just wish that not everyone expect something from me
Because I will just disappoint them,
and that is not something I want to do

(p.s. sorry for the people who don’t expect thing from me,
when I was way I watched people get awards
and I submitted something and I didn’t win anything,
so I was disappointed at my self,
and my friends who went where also disappointed
So I needed to vent my feelings, some how ^_^