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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2004 @ 06:45pm

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	My feelings for eveything I have to go to a wedding today. My cousin is getting married to his girlfriend and finally they can be immature raising my poor 2nd cousin together. I feel for his future. But its better that they want to stay together. My problem is the fact that I was crying last night for three straight hours. And yes he did come last night. I have never felt like this in my life. Hes done things like this before I went out with him and that was pretty bad. But now that we've dated for so long and that he has a girlfriend even before we broke up makes me want to leap off a building so he can realize that it was him that killed me. And maybe than he can realize that I never did cheat on him. That he never should have treated me this badly. Because of him I dont want to do anything and I havent been going to school anymore. And the little times I actually do go I never do anything. My rooms a mess. I never keep myself tidy anymore, and he looks at me as if he wants to say something but that he cant say it. He said that hes going through so many issues and that he didnt want to hurt me anymore. But now I realize that this time he hurt me more than ever and Im not going to get over it. Not this time. I cant. I want to but I cant. I.... I really did love him...... It wasnt just a teen crush thing. This was real. I knew at one point he loved me.I feel that he still does only because of the looks he gives me when I sit next to the guy I wanted to go out with. Yesterday, he gave me that look he gives me when hes hurting. Its like everytime he realizes I that Im there he cant dare look at me. This is the only thing in my life that I cant stop thinking about. Im tired of getting hurt. I want him to stop pretending to like someone. I want him back. Not the person he became. Im everything about himself that he hates, and.....he has to realize that.........I wa the best thing for him. I made him feel.....alive......

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Commented on: Sun Nov 07, 2004 @ 05:32pm


	wow that's cool that your going to a wedding :) :3nod: Mindy remeber what I told you about keeping your head up and to keep on going :) :( I know it's hard for you but throwing your life away because of him won't help you at all it will only hurt you from now and in future times :( (sigh)please Mindy you must go to school to get your education so you will have a good job or even a great one to support a family that you will have some day :3nod: :) and I think he knows how you are feeling but he is too ashamed for what he had done and is affraid he will hurt you even more than he did he wants to tell you something he has been meaning to tell you for a long time I think that will will set you free from all your problems so you can get back to your normal life :( (sigh)look I know you can't help to want to be with him but don't let that effect your life you must get good grades so you can be successful in life :3nod: :) :sweat: as for him trying to say something maybe you should say what you feel to him or ask him if he is trying to say something :3nod: :( you must get your life back together that is one of the first steps in a lot of steps to recover from something like this please I can not bearseeing a friend falling to pieces please you must listen keep your head up and look twards the past but head toward the future please just remeber all the good times you had and stop dwelling on the bad ones like if he comes over again start talking about the good time :) :( unfortunately life is to short to kill yourself before you can feel once again for a person you love and have a family with so please don't kill yourself that's the easy way out of situations like this that's the chiken way I know you can do this Mindy fight through all those bad times and head towards the better ones in life :) please try and talk it out if not just sit with him and talk about the good time yes I said this twice just incase it dose not get through to you the first time :sweat: :) ............and Remember Mindy the most important thing of all is that your friends will always be there to help you in your hour of need You must remember my words of wisdom Mindy you I want you to sore like an eagle through the skies in life not fall like a dead one remeber this important saying of mine ok :) : If life gets you down and you can't get up follow the light of your friends to help guid you and always keep climbing the stairs to have a good life and you shall always be triumphant over your fears and bad times yeah I know that was kind of stupid but it true :sweat: :) just keep your chin up and strive to the best you can be no matter what happens the incedents whatever you must strive to be the best that you can be Mindy :3nod: :) :wink: ok promise me that :)

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