I'm merely posting for gold, so I shall rant about something that's been on my mind for a few days. I don't want to bother my friends by always talking about this, so I'll just vent here and be on my way.
The guy that I've liked for a while shares my feelings, which makes me excessively happy. I haven't been sleeping at all since he told me (well, I told him first) because he's all that's on my mind right now; it's insane. I don't like someone very often at all, and when I fall, I fall hard. I'm always trying to make other people happy, and he's had this on and off girlfriend for a while. I always told myself that there's no way he could be happier with me, but for once I acted for myself, and hopefully things will work out. I'm only worried about her though; I know exactly how I feel and what I want, but he's always been a bit of a mystery to me. Unlike everyone else, I don't have him quite nailed down yet. I'm learning more, so maybe at one point I can figure out what he's thinking. Hopefully he's as happy as I am about these new discoveries.
It feels though, like time is standing still, and yet every time I talk to him, it all catches up and it feels like I'm twenty years into the future. Time is made even more relative when my emotions are as strong as they are now, but I don't want to lose, nor waste a second of it. I'm afraid that if I hesitate for a single moment then everything will pass me by and I'll be left in the background again, watching everyone with a fake smile. I want to keep these geuine smiles, if only for a bit longer. :]
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