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wats up to ya, it 's me again. . .yea have I got some stories.
My brother and is wife, expecting their fifth child, and possibly their fifth boy(lol) is living in my house for a few monthes. they will be going to the elementary school that I had the wonderful privaledge of gaining my education fortunately for only one year( thank God). school is about to start and I need to start on my homework that I had all summer to do. . . .yea. My boyfriend has been so wonderful to me. I love him so much. I brought him to Gaia a little while ago. we are doing just fine. I bought him a bat. . .so his avatar looked like he wanted to fight, just like him. and he got me a bracelet today, and I secretly eye'd that bracelet once or twice in my gaia lifetime.^.^ My ex-boyfriend, who I have a small dash of love for, not as much as I used to cause he was crazy, suicidal, and had bad judgement which got him in trouble later, He goes with this girl named Ashley, who was a lesbian at a point in her lifetime. . . . . .I was never fully comfortible around my ex anyway, when we went to the movies, I never really was myself, or how I wanted to be with my boyfriend. . .but I knew him, he could get real un shy at times and even annoying. . . .I know him, I had no idea that he had that power. . . . .
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ninja
to. . . .TURN. . . .the supposedly unturnable sexuality of people.
I am more proud than you would think(LOLOLOL)
anyway, i think about how it would be annoying and scary how he would complain that he wanted to lose his virginity fast and I wanted to wait, that got on my nerves considering that a relationship has notta to do with other people, other obnoxious and silly people. and he would try to pressure me into things. like at a movie. . .that I wanted to watch, that he appearantly didn't. . . . .if you are really like whoa enough to pressure a kiss out of me, what is up??? I did love him, but I really wonder if I was true to myself at the time. with the love that I have found I feel like before I would hang on to my love with my ex because I felt he would probably be the only love I could get. . . .we went to different schools, the constant unseeing of each other probably aided our break-up. If I truly was in love, couldn't I at least remember his face rather than the sound of his voice. I can barely listen to rock without thinking about him, that's why I can't stand it now. Our culture's were way off, he was more into rock and little into hip hop, I was vice versa, what held us together???I forever asked him that and all he could say was love. . .I didn't even understand fully how that word could keep it's letters in our relationship. My boyfriend now. . .I love him, I have known him for four years and he held his love for me inside, he held his jealousy of other me flirting with other guys inside, that is so freaking amazing 4laugh . I can remember his face, when we talk on the phone, whatever he says I can picture the exact facial expressions on his face. that is beautiful, that is all I ever wanted to do, love someone, know someone just that well. It is wonderful, he does not pressure me into things, he respects my decision to wait, and I am myself when I am with him, I can do that, he is himself, himself that he can't be around other people, around me. when i am not with my ex, I feel so unhappy like I don't know why I am with him and then when I see him I am thrilled. I am happy with my boyfriend all the time. and another thing that drags me about my relationship with my ex, he never, ever took me seriously. I asked him,"please, I don't like to curse and I don't like to hear it, please don't curse around me". . . . .still cursed, and he said it was hard. . . . rolleyes right. the nerve of him saying that he wanted to change for me when I didn't want to take him back after he dumped me. My boyfriend, he curses. . . . . .wait. . .not. .around. .me eek eek eek amazing. My boyfriend, who will fight about anybody that steps to him( he took judo), he can sit up in my face and respect my wishes of not cursing. . .and then. . .not curse. . . . . . eek surprised surprised surprised eek surprised
By the way, there are rules that can possibly prevent heart ache.
#1- no long distance relationships- if you can't see your boo almost everyday, it's chancy.
#2-don't date your ex-boyfriend's best friend. . . .that your ex introduced to you. . . .- if your ex became your ex in the first place, why would his best friend be that different???
#3- trust is essetial- either party of the relationship with jealousy issues can't easily keep their trippin on a minimum. work that out immediately.
#4- take care of your own life before you try to invite someone else to be a part of it- your problems with school, or inside your home, or anywhere and reflect itself upon your relationship whether you like it or not.
#5- if you truly care about someone and want to be with them, make sure everyone can be happy. If they are happy with something and you're not, work it out, if vise versa, work it out, if they wish for a change in you to better yourself, don't be an a$$. confused mad wink whee
#6-most important so far- always be yourself, you could choke yourself if you try and act like something you're not, trust me, I know. you have to develop the attitude to say hey, I like myself, either you accept that or not, because enabling yourself to be a different person to conform to someone else's personality, that is lying to yourself that this is true love. . . >.>(sigh)
that's all I have to say
love is a powerful thing,
careful how you use it.
*walks out thinking*
(someone needs to tell Bush that). . . . . cool arrow