Life has been disappointing up to now. School starts tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it so much like I was first 2 semesters. Things have just ben getting to me and I can't trust anybody with that information. I think I could tell one person or so but beyond that I dunno who I could tell that too without have to screw over what I have built up to now. Things are getting to me. Than I have to wonder what they meant when they said:
"Hey Josh, you running for JO?"
"Yeah"
"Oh good, so there is some hope still"
What about everybody else running? Aren't they good enough? I wish I could just...see the whole answers at times like these. I don't care in general. Just...see what is between [ and ]. The words that are left behind and assumed everyone knows. Oh well. Jurisdiction election coming up at that seems to be the only hope burning in me still. Nothing else seems really keep the fire burning in me. Just the hope that i can serve the jurisdiction and demolay like I do but with an office.
Things...I wish, could just happen a little bit different. I need more power. The power to help those I care about. The power to stop bad things from happening to them. The power to change the world. That would be awesome. Well I am off. Off to another sleepless night. Damn I need sleep. I need it bad. gonk
 Dirteh Old Man · Mon Aug 15, 2005 @ 06:54am · 0 Comments |
