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Today
Ok, this day sucks. I don't know how to survive life... i'm feeling bad, cause yesterday it was a really weird day... in school everything's ok. then i went to the music school. now i know that girl just hates me now, but there was the teacher's son... i have to say, he's really good-looking... and we talked a lot, and he came with me for a few minutes, when i went to home... then there was that party in that school, so i had to go back... if i should do anything important on that thing, but no i did not... so the teacher said, that's the minimum that i watch my classmates how will they do it... but i had to go, just exactly before my class' performance, and i saw the teacher's face and i have to say, she was a bit angry... so i went to the cinema, with my ex classmate, who is still my friend, and we watched What happens in Vegas... it was a really cool movie, i think, but i couldn't enjoy it... i always saw my teacher's face, and i know, when i'll go to school next time, she'll ask where did i have to go... and if i'll tell her, that oh, i just went to the cinema, she'll hate me for a life... so i have to find out something... my idea is just to say that it was my ex classmates last party in Hungary, because she'll go to Austria, or i've got no idea where, to study, and we just made a party for her, and i must say good bye! I hope it'll be ok... :S at night i called my friend, Susy up, to ask her, what happened on that school party... she said it was cool, but the microphone didn't work that well, so it was funny... it was so good to see Betty, my ex classmate again, but i don't know what to do with this feeling... i just didn't see my classmates... and the teacher will hate me for ever... and i'll have to lie... this is soo bad... i just wanna delete it all... i wanna go back in the time... s**t, why haven't we invented the "timetravelling" yet? ahh, dunno what to do... next time i won't do this again... but today... sucks... i woke up at about half past eight, and then i went to music school again (this teacher's not normal... it's saturday, man!!!), and i had to be there for 2 hours... the teacher was angry with me, because i said that she wrote the music notes wrong, but then it cleared up, that i couldn't read it... then a girl came in, i know her, and she knows me, too, and i said hi, but she just didn't say hello! and i know she must hate me... or i don't know... maybe she only takes me for an idiot... how to be perfect?! if you do something, it's sure someone won't like it... if you do well in school and the teachers and your parents are happy, but your classmates laugh at you behind your back, or just simply hate you, because you are clever... what the hell is with this world:S... or with me... or dunno... man, i don't know anything... if i should be this stupid or idiot, i shouldn't work as a teacher... and you can say anything, you're only a young, silly child, and they never pay attention for you, and they look at you only if you're almost crying... i will pay attention for everyone always, and i'll never say that you idiot, you're wrong....
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