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Life, the Universe, and Everything...
Yeah. I left without much warning. I didn't expect this to turn into months. I'm still feeling bad about all that, but I've always preached life first, and for once, it was me having to do it. Doesn't make me feel proud of dropping everything... in truth, the fall started last year when my mom had surgery, and I tried to stave off the truth of facing up to a lot of things coming down.
I'm not detailing it all out - much is personal crap people don't need to know. But one of the huge driving forces also keeping me offline, and away from people, have been my health issues, and I've had a few.
Some of you know that I got really sick right before the middle of Feb. - I had a serious flu-like bug that pretty much had me in bed a LOT ofr a few days, and I wasn't functioning well at all. I also had stress from life kicking in right then to boot - bad combo.
Right after, I caught another ajor bug, chained into another and then an infection in my ear/throat... one that didn't want to go away. This would be early March to mid March now, and I ahd comp issues and net issues also poking at me when I was trying to be around, causing me more stress while life continued to drag me along for the bad ride of stressful BS coming down aruond me.
I also ended up not having my period.... which doesn't happen much at all. And honestly, started scaring the s**t out of me when it wasn't coming. BTW I still haven't but I should now that I was on birth control for a month and hopefully rebalanced my hormones. As I said, I really was NOT well at all... and while semi TMI, the scare of being pregnant was enough to cause me some serious stress that made me very difficult to deal with. Be glad I was offline a LOT... I was a nasty person.
The real kicker and source of stress.... THE gem of gems that ahs had me seriously almost and sometimes IN tears... has been my throat/esophagus. I took a pill about a week or so before the illness chain... and it felt like it got stuck... no amount fo drinking would solve the feeling... and it persisted. And still does. MONTHS after... it's bene such a stress not knowing and trying to get answers.... *sigh* I've been a mess still because of it. I go in on the 27th for a camera to look in and see WTF is going on, as nothing really IS getting stuck at all according to monday's Swallow Test...
PS: Barium is nasty s**t and I pray you never do a Swallow Test OR a Barium Swallow (both are types of X-ray proceedures). God I was choking on those crakcers with the barium on Monday.... ugh.
So yeah, that's the quick run-down on s**t that I want to share that's caused me such stress. My comp STILL wants to be an a**, and my net too. Which really blows... because goddamnit, I want to get s**t done.
And I haven't evne gotten to enjoy lv 70 on WoW. That's the biggest irony of all I think about this. I hit 70 and then everything went to s**t IRL. Hehe. I can laugh about it, only because it IS somewhat funny. Just wish I could laugh more about how bad things were.... it's not over yet, but I'm trying to get something back that I liked and was ME. I'm tired of being cut off.... I need something back.
And I';m tired of leaving people hanging.
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