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I dunno felt like writting again. I can't believe I have like 18 days of school left.I dunno what to be doing really.It hasn't hit home that all of this is going to end.It's all dream like and foggy right now.I keep hearing,"We should do this more often" but what if there won't be a more often?
Gawd I hate growing up. Why can't everyone just stay the same. I guess that's just life though.You grow up and things change.I still wish they didn't and we all hung out all the time.It's not like anything else changes LOL we just get jobs and have the same high school BS as usual we're just older and live in different places.
Curse you Missouri and your tendency to suck and have people move away.I like it here I don't think it would be too horrible to stya but not.I guess I like being rooted to things.....
So I can't make up my mind for Forest Park or SCC since collage is forever away on the budget my parents put me on.I dunno...Gahh! I wanna kinda follow my friends and go with them but we all want diferent things and are going to different schools. I looked at Mizzou where Kaiba is going but we can't afford it I think.....Parentals are so vage on what we can and cannot do. I have the FAFSA ready to go I just need them to get there Taxes done....I dunno I can't really apply to any schools till I have that right? And I can't apply to any schools because I have no idea what I want. Why can't I be a reniassance woman huh? Do a little of everything? Ack,I hate myself sometimes. Oh well.I guess it's just part of me to be indesicive to a fault right?
Maybe I'll grow out of it LOL Gawd,I can't believe I'm gonna be 19.It's so old yet not. I dunno. MEHHHHHHHH!!!

GO OUT WITH A BANG! This last week or so I'm gonna make count! I'm gonna have fun and NOBODY is gonna stop that!!! HUZZAH MOTHER FREAKERS!!!!