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The worst girlfriend ever smothers her guy
She wants to be with him all the time and
Gets hurt and mad (like an idiot) when he doesn't pay
Attention to her
She always brings up the problems in their
Relationship, no matter how good things are
Actually going

The worst girlfriend ever wants her guy
To change for her, to be who she dreams he
Should be

The worst girlfriend ever wants to change and
Make things right, but she can never seem to do
Much but make things worse and make her guy
Feel like giving up on her

The worst girlfriend ever lives with many regrets
And much sorrow at the pain she inadvertently
Inflicts upon everyone, especially her boyfriend

The worst girlfriend ever...is me...

Well, I wrote this poem today cuz I feel as if I truly am the worst gf in the world cuz I feel like I am always effin' up stuff in our relationship (mine and my bf's, I mean). I feel as if I expect too much of him, and even though I know he loves me cuz he's shown me time and time again that he does and he's told me endless amount of times the same fact, I still doubt him and his love and I still demand him to show me his love and to constantly tell me how much he loves me. Then, I just smother him without even thinking about it. I just feel like I am such a horrible person... emo I just hate how I constantly doubt him and I wish I could be a better girlfriend. He deserves so much better than me cuz he is so amazing and so loving and caring. I honestly don't know why he still loves me...but even when I point out these flaws I'm speaking of, he says that he loves me regardless of all of that, that he would find it difficult to ever stop loving me. How can any sane person doubt someone so understanding like that? I don't know...I guess there's just something wrong with me...I guess I am an idiot like I keep saying... *sigh*