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I'm so annoyed. Well, actually not so annoyed as when this actually happened, but I'm still annoyed. I've been put in the second novice crew at uni, below 12 people who have only just started rowing, despite the fact I've been rowing for two years! I can barely believe it. I knew I'd never make anywhere near the Senior 1st boat, but I thought that I would be better than people who'd just started. It was my chance to actually be good at a sport, and now I've been told I'm worse than total newcomers. I don't want to hear how hard it was to split us! I want to know that I haven't wasted Sunday mornings for 2 years of my life. Was it even worth getting up? I could have had some lie-ins!

Nothing is going my way at the moment. I lost a good new jumper, broke a pedal on my Dad's bike that I was borrowing and then after the rowing meeting thought I was going to see a Gilbert and Sullivan musical only to find it had started 30 minutes before. Arrrghhh! scream

Seriously though, it sometimes seems as if academic stuff is all I'm good at. I'm still having trouble remembering everyones' names and no girls will even dance with me. I've failed to get onto the novice 1st team despite 2 years experience. I must really suck.

Yet still I carry on. I am going to try to represent the uni at something. Even if it's archery where everyone can take part then they just pick the top scores. At least I get on well with the people in the Scouts and Guides Club!

If this rant seems a bit bitter, don't worry. I'm actually not feeling that bad anymore, it just seems so unfair compared to those who just waltz in and be good at something. I can sometimes do that with academic stuff, so I'm sure loads of people hate me for that, but it doesn't make you friends or popular or respected. Not yet anyway. Maybe when I get that Nobel prize blaugh