Well on March 14 was my 15th birthday. Not much people remembered but a few of my friends did say Happy Birthday and on of them made it pretty cool by making a card and having some of the Drama kids in our club sign in. But the one friend who did make it somethin' special was my bestest friend. He made me a cake, a strawberry cake...... I don't really like strawberries or strawberries in cake.....then he got me a gift.......it was nice. But what made it special is the thought, the wonderful thought of taking the time to make something for me or finding something I'd like, mainly the thought of remembering my birthday and trying to make it great. Unfortunately I was at school and sick, but other than that it was okay. Then on Saturday I went to Medivevil (yes I purposely spelled that wrong) Times, for the first time with my family. My family always makes everything special, just being with them is great, though I have occasional argument with siblings.
Today, I'm not doing much........Actually on gaia, WoW eek that's a first in a long time. Um...I dyed my hair black and cut my bangs!!!! No more blondy! I'm happy about that only because I've been dying to dye it! lol I made a pun! HAHA....dying like dying hair....heehee.....
-Okay being 15 obviously make a person crazy! Or maybe I've just always been crazy.. Never mind, back on topic.
I'm now on spring break! Alright!-
Have you ever found yourself staring at some random object and realizing that you had a feeling you never thought you'd have again? But this feel is not like that feeling you one had, no, it's grown to be strong! You find yourself day dreaming and notice you'll day dreaming drifted to something relevant to your new found feeling. Or have you ever had a feeling that you keep telling yourself isn't real but you've always had it and never was sure if it's okay to have such a strong feel! You're always trying so hard to forget the feeling and pushing it from your mind but it only grows strong! You're not sure if you should speak it or keep it to yourself because you love how things have been, but maybe things would be better if you just accepted the fact that you had them to begin with! Well...if you had these feelings, I'm sorry for you because I understand how difficult it is. Sometimes you just want to get it out there and other times it's hard to know if it's the real thing, the actually feeling you have......... I think I feel that way sometimes, but when I feel this way it's not because of a bad feeling...... Once again, I'm sorry if you can feel so confused like this because it's incredibly mind spliting, especially if it's not the greatest feeling.........
Honestly, feelings are just your feelings, and though you may not know what you should do, you just need to take a deep breath, proceed on with the day, be the best person you can be, and everything should fall into place. I know it's not as easy as I write it, but just have confidence......
WishingKat Community Member 
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