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	I cant do this.
	I cant do this.


I dont know what to do. I'm at the point once again where I dont want to live. I dont want to feel this. This heart breaking pain. It's not something I want to live with again. But this time... This time I dont have Kimi to comfort me... It makes me sick... I want to plug a knife in my throat and end it... I wish i would have long ago... Before I got friends... Before I lost them... Before I fell in love... Before I broke it to pieces, That I desperetly try to fix, the shards cutting into my skin, making it bleed the blood I deserve. ... I wish I would have ended it... before I turned nineteen... my worst favorite number... but that's not why... ... March eighteenth two thousand eight... the day I fully realized... That I truly dont deserve to live. I hurt everyone that get to know me... I already hurt the one I care for most... And I'm afraid... I cant fix this... Not now... not ever... I can try... But I dont think I'd succeed... I dont like being the way i am... I'm a horrid person... a mask might work for now... I can pretend I'm happy... but it wont work for long... it never has... it never will... and that is that. Broken-Reiko · Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 01:51am · 1 Comments


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Wed Mar 19, 2008 @ 07:14am

hey, i know hard it is to live with thoughts like this in your head... i have never really thought them myself but my best friend, (my mother) did... trust me... it may seem like no one cares... but there are always so many that care about you, im sure you know who they are... dont let ur anger/frustration/sadness skew that... it's important to try and stay positive... you have your whole life ahead of you... so many new people to meet and a whole new set of friends to make... life is hard... but that is why we are here... life is a challange, and quitting is not an option... that's why you have great friends... they are here to help you thru... i may be a new friend... but i am here for you!

Dont be sad k?

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