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I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY MY MOM THINKS I WILL ALWAYS OPEN UP TO HER!!

She tells me that I can't go over to a friends house because WE have work to do. So I finally ask her what I need to do, and she tells me to fold the laundry, so I do. Then I ask her if I'm done. She tells me to sweepthe kitchen floor, and then she'll clean the kitchen. I sweep the floor. I ask her if I'm done. She tells me to vacuum, and that she'll be there in a sec to start working. I finish vacuuming the TV room, and I told her that I'm done, and I ask if I can get on the computer (because she was on it). She says to vacuum the hall and the den. I do so, and by this time I'm getting SO mad. I finish, and I sit at the other chair in the computer, hoping it wiill tell her to get off. She doesn't get it, and I ask her if I can get on the computer. She says when she's done playing the mahjong game. She plays 5 more long games as she tries to talk to me about my life, as I wish a bullet were to stray by skull and kill me. I finally get to mad that all I want to do is cry! And when I do so, she says all caringly, 'Sweetie, whats wrong? Is it NAME NOT USED FOR PRIVACY? Please talk to me!' And by this time I'm now bawling in frustration. I tell her that I'm not gonna talk about it, and if she doesn't stop then she'll be the problem. She finally gets off, and she tries to joke about it with me.

I'm so ready to just lock myself in my room and blast some music and sleep, and think, and probably cry some more.

Any advice peoples?