When I was writing the last journal entry, I was in a whirlpool of emotions....and I thought Shanta really had a heart. Turns out that's wrong though, since I've tried to apologize multiple times and she refuses to listen to me or the others about me making amends.
Pyro and Assassin as far as I know tried to get her to read the last journal entry, but she refused. She even told Pyro at one point "I can't read her journal because it's on "friends only". BULLSHIT. My journal is set on public view and even if I'm on her ignored list, at the time they were trying to get her to read it she was still on my friend list, meaning that even if my journal was on friends only she still could've read it.
I honestly think Shanta's a pretty awesome person....but she's turned into a b***h to me. Yes I screwed up a lot, but I've apologized over and over again and the others have forgiven me.....yet Shanta won't.
So, it didn't occur to me until a day after or so, but why the hell was I killing myself over something like that? I came up with a theory irl that if someone I offended wouldn't even hear my apology I'd say "******** it, if you won't accept the apology I've offered, then I'm done trying." because I did try to make it up, and if they don't accept it that's their problem.
So why should Shanta be any different? She suddenly turned mean and won't listen to me anymore...oh well, I tried, and it's her problem if she still has a problem with me. She didn't even tell me that I was going on her ignored list, and I didn't know I was hurting her. So in a way, she is being a coward by not confronting me directly and telling me the problems she has with me.
Like I said, "******** it" I tried. And honestly, I do feel a pang of regret that she still won't forgive me....but, hey, I'm tired of her bitchiness.
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