yeah, i found out its easier to go through my day than to write them down. And since i was like... s**t.. missed another day, s**t.. missed another day, s**t.. and so on, i got lazy so i ended up not doing them. Well, let me sum up what happeend in those 3 weeks that i forgot didnt tell you about.
Lets see, school was the usual for pretty much every day. I guess the only difference is me thinking im failing in latin then finding out im getting a 92.3. Uhm, Math is going as smooth as you'de think. Meg and me arent really talking anymore. I found out from her sister that she thinks im annoying now, so im gonna roll it off and just say "Ok, life moves on, i guess you weren't my friend after all" *shrugs* I mean, what else could i have done about it? *sighs*
I talked to my madre (mom) about it and she told me some deep, truthful things... as usual she always has something to say about the matter. She told me:
"The word friends is a very used word. But what we dont understand is what a friend is. Besides the point that he or she should stay by you, through thick and thin, there is alot more to it then that. In my world... i only have one true friend. I dont need to work at it for her to like me, and i dont need to make her happy for her to like me. I could call her when im sad, and she'd subdue my sadness."
"But mom, i think of it as im always there for everyone else, i make people happy so they could be like, Hey, lets call up Justin, or something like that. Its like i work on one group of friends, but then the other dies down. And i work on them again, but then these other friends dies down"
"Those people are what u call aquantinses (spell?!), you cant make eveyrone happy, you have ur own group of close friends and no matter what, im sure they'de think the same of you even if you didnt talk to them for a year or so. Good friends are hard to come by."
"But, its like after a year or two, if someone called me up and talked to me, i would think the same as i though two years back, so why cant they be like me? I mean, i know im not perfect but i like everyone i come in contact with. Like over the summer, i come back and the people i havent seen in so long dont say Hi to me. I mean, I wouldn't do that! What the heck, all these friends i called friends think of me as just another person while i try and think of them as friends i can help and have fun with."
Well, then she told me that those kind of people are the selfish types who kinda only care about whos what and what he or she could get from it. I still dont understand people yet. Im still really confused. But its ok, i keep reminding myself that "time heals all wounds" and that i can find better friends. I mean, hell, if you think im annoying and dont want to talk to me in school, does talking to me through MSN or AIM mean u feel guilty about not talking to me? Well, i'de say screw you too buddy.
Anyway, yeah, over the weekends we played a massive game of halo, and some other things. I've been brushing up on my tennis, and talking to people that make me mad. Im starting to find out that everyone in this world are sheeps and are easily lead if you know how to lead them. And im starting to find out for myself that poeple in this world are stuburn, stupid, and most of the time greedy in some way. Its kinda dipressing but i guess ill just have to think of this as a test in life. Ill pull through, dont worry.
One last thing, todays saturday, mischief night. Im thinking of having poker, then going over to Nicks house to be with him and his friend Henry to play some Resident Evil with sorround sound and in the dark. I dun think im gonna get to sleep tongiht, but oh well!
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Be happy!! Its Holloween!!!
