I have ended it. She will never come back to me, and I will learn to accept it. They can be together and not have to worry about me anymore, and I will move on to better myself. I'm sure they won't lie to eachother ever again, and they can hold their trust closer than ever before in the long run. I'm pretty bitter about this now, but at least I feel like I did the right thing. I did nothing in with malicious intent. Hopefully she'll believe me one day.
It's been nearly four years. A good run for someone you hold closer than anyone else to you. Maintaining it wasn't possible for my side though in the end. It hurts a lot to let her go. I never thought I'd feel heartbreak again when it started. No more tears. No more regret. No more looking back. All I forgot was the pictures, and they will be burned today.
I'm going to put my attention into my career in the Navy for the next four years. It's what I will use to better myself. I'll keep myself busy, and eventually be myself again when I get back from bootcamp hopefully. And who knows? Maybe after the Navy, I'll meet someone else. Someone who isn't confused in what she wants... she did say she's only one out of three people. I'll give her thought a shot for once.
Life goes on, and I become a little wiser.
I'll always wish she didn't hold the last kiss away from me in malice though...
Through the good and through the bad. It wasn't enough to save us. Goodbye. best of wishes Tabatha and brandon.
 Great Scoot · Sat Jan 26, 2008 @ 08:26am · 1 Comments |
