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Have you ever seen someone freak out, like go totally spaztic and yelling and all that anger? I just did. It reminds me of a distant relation of mine. Somehow, seeing someone so shaken makes me shaken too. How does that work out? I guess it kind of disrups a person's false security... But that's something I've never understood. God said to be calm and at peace which is a fruit of the spirit yet he also says that we shouldn't get to comfortable in this world because it's not really where Christians belong. I don't feel I'm really qualified to call my self a Christian right now. I have a few things I need to straiten out, because one of my faults is having fun or doing something to the limit of obsession. If I play a game I play it too long. If I eat dessert I feel I eat too much, but finding the ballence of self control and indulgence is so hard!