Lately I've been worrying about alot of things. I know, it's not a healthy thing for me to do, but I can't help it. I was under alot of stress the other day, and spoke with Shu about it. This is what went down.
Gothic _Zeek Wrote: I'm just under a lot of stress lately and I'm really emotional. I'm crying over here and I don't really know why. I haven't slept in days or even eaten, I'm so stressed out. I just wanted to RP in peace, but I can't even do that anymore. Maybe I should just quite Gaia all together....
Shubeik Wrote: Ur not the only one with problems.
All you need is to calm down a bit. After all in the rplay we dont have any faul of whatever happens in your real life.
( it is written with love )
Gothic_Zeek Wrote: I've been trying to calm down for days! Nothing helps anymore. I shake all the time, smokes don't work anymore, baths, messages, nothing! I can't relaxe anymore and it's got me on a emotional see-saw that's about to snap! I just wanna try and have fun with what little time I have on..... and so far, it was till she say that about my RPC.
Shubeik Wrote: She never said anything bad: Aurora, myself and even her explained it to you?
Perhaps the reason why nothing helps its because ... you know why u feel that way?
Gothic_Zeek Wrote: I'm stressed out over everything because Kai's sick irl and I'm worried as hell about him. We may not live in the same state, but I can't stop thinking about him, hell, I dream about him every night. Lately, those dreams have turned into horrid nightmares where he's dead and s**t..... I wake up screaming and panting and sweating....
Shubeik Wrote: oh sugar ... but u know that stressing that way will not help him.
Gothic_Zeek Wrote: I can't help it Shu... I really do love him. I plan on marring him and everything.
Shubeik Wrote: I dont doubt your love, but its not healthy...not for you not for him.
I hope he gets better; but really I beleive (and u know) that mood wont get you anywhere.
Gothic_Zeek Wrote: I'm trying not to worry, but I can't help it. I don't have much of a real family, just little Aces is all I got. I don't know what I'd do without Kai.
Shubeik Wrote: The problem is not to stop worring...I mean you can worry...but in a healthy way : )
I guess I can understand how you feel...but you have to control yourself; for Kai and for your own health ... I know its not easy but ... you can do it
Gothic_Zeek Wrote: I just don't know what to do anymore, Shu... I'm crying again and I don't understand why. I rarely cry as it is....
Shubeik Wrote: Oh Zeek *hugs him tighly*
Gothic_Zeek Wrote: *cries and shakes* I just don't know what's wrong with me anymore. I've never been or acted like this before... I'm scared...
Yeah, I know... I'm only making it worse for me... but I can't help it. I just.. don't know what to do anymore....
 Chef Zeke LeDeltrie · Fri Jan 18, 2008 @ 09:44pm · 1 Comments |
