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well now im 18..... in a way its amazing .....i cant belive i made it this far...sometimes its scary to think i have years ahead of me . shiney new years that i might horribly destroy....what if no matter how hard i try i screw up? or what if i end up average? id rather be eccentric... odd queer...anything rather then condemed to a life time of normalacy! i want to laugh loud and play hard. i want to be beautiful succesful... idk anything! in some ways i have always been older then my peers, and in some ways younger. i havent decieded yet if thats good or bad. i want to do something, anything, to let the world know im here. i feel like time has been going oh so fast and my goals just arent traveling along. im aiming for the moon.... and im winding up crashlanding in horrific piles of failure, and columes of thick black discoragment. but i keep going on. some days my life feels like a movie..like i should have a music track playing in the backgroundXD.soemdays i wake up and life is oh so bright and others just....pass by?
idk well this is my mind running on a slice of birthday cake a soda and lack of sleep

get creative! be productive!
and remeber,
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