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I can feel it growing inside of me, its spreading faster almost every day, like a vortex ingulfing, purging, curoding me. I stop caring, I no longer know right form wronge, do from don't. Soon it will become me, I will become it. I can;t stop this inevitable change that is taking place inside of me, I've tried to stop it, It's like the there are three strings that cponect me to the light, one was cut but I thought mabve I could tie it back, but no matter how hard i try it just wants to stay cut, it keeps saying "You'll just let me get cut again, so I'll wait for you to cut me." the other one doesn't know she is a stringe yet but sooner or later I will tell ehr, and when she knows she will tyr and make a stonger connection, the third string is on the verg of being cut, but some how it is resisting. the three stringes are my nfirneds, one of them use to be my friend, but no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do, it doesn't want to be repared, so it just makes another entry for the darkness to come in and take over. I feel like giving up yelling at her and just letting her know how badly she is pissing me off by not even giving forgivness a thought. I've forgivin her for all the times she has hurt me, why can't she forgive me for the one time I hurt her? the third sting is Another friend, she makes me feel a bit happyer but it isn't enough to keep out the dark. She is going through so much, and just the tought that no matter what I do I can't help her makes me hurt. The first stinge is some one I hold closer than anyone else, some one I would give my life for wwihtout a second thought. The thing is, she is the strongest string tha tholds me from the dark, she wont even talk to me anymore, I can't help but feel like she doesn't even want to talk to me. A big part of me loves her more than I could have ever thought possible. Yet I feel that she hates me, I havn't talked to ehr since about 3 weeks before Christmas, I try to talk to her and she just ignores me. The pain I feel is unrealistic the darkness form this makes me hate and angry. Its growing everyday. Can it ever stop ?Will it ever stop? I want the darkness to leave me alone, and yet, I want it to be me, I wont the darkness to completly take me.

((If anyone reads this I'm sorry for the bad typing errors))