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Why my dear ow why?
Why did you leave me and choose for the other why?
They say it's nothing and i have to grow over it but how can i if my hearth is broken?
If i still love and think about you every single mimute of the day?
If i dream about you.. you're sweet lips and lovely smile.
You're head that presses agains my chest and how i looked down at you with a smile on my face when you cried.
You on my lap, we watching a film togheter, laughing togheter and having fun togheter.
I want that back.
I want you're smile, you're laugh, you're body and mind back.
While i know i can't.
While i know that i was the jerk who let you slip away.
And as it gets darker before my eyes i start a fantasy about another guy, another smile, another laugh and another mind.
People they come and they go.
And i still don't really know.
Who i have to love or hate.
Who will betray me and who's my friend.
But one thing i know for sure.
I will allways love you no matter what.
No matter what for jerk and a*****e i am.
No matter how much you hate and disguse me.
Even if it wasn't for so long.
I will allways love you and please remember me as the person you loved to.