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I had a rather sore reminer today about how my life kinda sucked as a kid...
My dad told me to go outside. I stopped doing that when i moved down to Florida. It's too hot outside for me. I detest the weather here. His reason for this is I need to get off my computer.
I don't go on the computer too much anymore. usually they have me doing chores. I think my dad is trying to get out of paying an eletric bill, which isn't high in the first place.

But my friend told me to play with my siblings when I told her I didn't know what to do.
>.<
No!
I don't want to do that!
That would be worse then going outside and doing nothing!

My little sister likes to play. she's five. She's also very boring and annoying. The rest of my family likes to be on the computers as well, or else watching a movie or playing some kind of video game.
I don't balme hem- I know how hot it is outside!

But I thought of all the stuff my sister has now...she has about five times more toys than I did when I was little. She has all the nice stuff too...she is so spoiled! She could kill someone and my parents would find some way to twist it around so it was my fault. They treat her like an angel, which she isn't.

Anyway, she has all my hand me down toys, which wasn't too much. But she has all sorts of other stuff- things I never would have had. My parents didn't have much money at all when I came around. I slept in a crib until I was three or four. We didn't have enough money to gt me a bed. She has all sorts of playsets, like a kitchen and stuff. i never had any of that! And she whines when she doesn't get what she wants or her way. And my parents always give in. When I tell her no, and I do it with good reasons too, they always yell at me that I'm not the parent. Then they tell me to do what my sister wanted.
>.<
It's not fair!
If I did some of the things she does I would have gotten spanked and stuff for it. But they never lift a finger on her or my little brother!
Mind you, I don't want them beaten, but I think that they could use a good swat on their rear ends every now and again.
My brother is 13 and he still cries all the time. He loses his temper too fast. the same with my other little brother and my little sister. They are all horrible babies.
My older brother also has anger problems, but I think he was hit too much as a child. he's grown up with no respect for my dad and I can see why. My dad is such a hypocrite, and he always pushes off his work onto us. He did it when we were little too.
I stopped crying around the time I was six. It's rare that I cry now. It's just...not something that I do. I've faced some rather lows, so none of this stuff is worth crying about to me. I'm...unable to.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go and break up a fight I hear before my two, spoiled younger brothers kill themselves.